This chapter is dedicated to him.
♥Chapter 12♥
Love the Love You Have
‘Can you find me in the midst of a crowd?
Do you dream of me when the lights go down?
Do you breathe me in the smoke from your cigarette?
Do you feel me with every breath?’
I woke up and felt an arm around me. Weird way to wake up. I decided to free myself from mystery man’s arms, to my dismay, I failed. I groaned and accidentally nudged him, I looked up to see if he woke up, and I saw that it was Alex, he was sleeping so peacefully as if I didn’t hurt him. I gazed at his beauty, his eyelashes looked so delicate and he looked so fragile it hurts.
It hurts that I can’t have him.
It hurts that he’s way out of my league.
It hurts that I’m not the girl he wants.
I decided to wake him up, seeing it was ten-thirty. I wanted to wake him up, but my body won’t move. After gathering all my thoughts of him, I shook him awake. To my dismay, it failed. What was he a rock?!
I shook him again. I thought he was going to wake up but once again I failed. He groaned and pulled me closer, as much as I wanted this, I knew it was wrong. I’m not the girl he wants, that was a fact I was sure of. I decided it was time to wake him up, Cassie style. I took a deep breath and shouted right in his ear. That sure did wake him up; he fell to the floor and landed with a thud. He got up and gave me the scariest look I’ve ever seen him give anyone.
“What the hell Cassie?!” He shouted.
“I’m sorry. You wouldn’t wake up.” I whispered, scared for my life.
“I didn’t even feel you nudge me!” He looked really mad. Shit.
“Actually I did, twice” I said a little louder.
“Oh. Still, that was mean” He didn’t look too angry now, in fact he pouted. Bipolar much.
“Sorry” I gave him the cutest puppy look I could muster, he smiled.
“Let’s just go downstairs and eat.” He suggested, I nodded my head in agreement.
As we went downstairs, I could smell freshly squeezed orange juice and pancakes. I guess walking in Alex’s clothes in his house was not a very good idea. When Alex and I entered the kitchen, his parents and his brother Kyle was giving me strange awkward looks. Alex answered their unanswered questions.
“We did not do anything I promise, if you don’t mind me and Cassie would like some breakfast now.” He pulled me to the counter and handed me a plate of pancakes and sat down next to me. We ate in silence as Mr. and Mrs. Knight were keeping themselves busy, Kyle on the other hand began asking me questions like ‘Was he good?’ or ‘You can trust me, what did you guys really do?’ I got irritated with him and Alex’s parents, they were never like this to me. I stood up.
“Look, nothing really happened okay? I was drunk and he let me stay instead of facing the wrath of my mother. Please act normal and Kyle what the hell?! Are you gay or something?” That made them look at Kyle, not at me. Good.
Mrs. Knight walked towards me and gave me a very motherly hug.
“I’m sorry sweetie. We were just taken by surprise I mean, anyone would make that assumption considering you’ve been friends for years now. We are truly sorry.”
Now that was an apology even the devil would forgive. I hugged her back and told her ‘it was okay’
Everyone was back to normal, though Mr. Knight was questioning Kyle’s sexuality. After we finished eating, I decided to change out of Alex’s clothes and head over to Hayley’s place.
I told Alex my plans, which he not so happily agreed seeing as he thought Hayley was a bitch. Can’t blame him, what she did really hurt Alex.
I got dressed in my last night clothes and asked Alex to drive me to my house, he happily agreed.
When I got home I took a quick shower and dressed in purple shorts, a pink and yellow striped shirt, and my favorite pair of chucks; the rainbow colored one.
I drove to Hayley’s place and went inside. I was about to go to her room when Carla, Hayley’s mom interrupted me.
“Cassie dear, can you please wake up my daughter?” She pleaded.
“Why? What’s wrong? Is she okay?” I was frantic.
“Oh she’s fine. She’s just not herself.”
“What do you mean?”
“Never mind, I’ll let you see it for yourself. Go on.” With that she walked away, leaving me puzzled.
I entered Hayley’s room and saw
“What the fuck, Hayley?” I was shocked.
“C-cassie! Let’s talk outside, shall we?” She seemed nervous.
“No. Anything you have to say can be said here.” I planted my feet flat on the floor. I saw Hayley turn to the clones,
“Cassie, I don’t want to hang out with you anymore. I’ve found people who are way cooler than you’ll ever be. I feel stupid for hanging out with a loser like you. You’re so stupid and so annoying with your rich face rubbing all of your rich success on my face. Go burn in hell.”
Her words were said as if it was practiced. I couldn’t help it, tears started to fall. Evil
I slammed the door shut and walked out of the house with Carla calling me to come back but I didn’t listen to her.
I went to the beach and sat down, letting all the emotions bottled up inside come out. Anger. Fear. Confusion.
Anger for Hayley.
Fear for my life after high school.
Confusion for my feelings for Alex.
I felt something fall on my nose, I looked up and saw that it was raining. Instead of standing up and running to my car like a normal person would do, I stayed on my spot letting the rain wash away everything I hated.
Hours passed and I’m still in the spot I’ve been in. I felt arms around my waist, I couldn’t think. Only one person could put me in a trance with one touch, I rested my head on his shoulder.
“What’s wrong?” Alex asked.
“Everything.”
“Why?”
“My life sucks.”
“Why?”
“Hayley became one of them.”
“When?”
“Just this morning, when I came to see her and she told me stuff”
“Like?”
“I was an annoying stupid loser. She said that I should burn in hell”
“You’re not.”
“What if I am?”
“Well you’re not, you’ve got nothing to worry about”
“Alex, don’t leave me.”
“I won’t, never.”
“What about tour? It’s only a week away.”
”You’re going to come right? Of course you are. We’ll be together forever.”
”Promise?”
“I promise”
We locked our pinkies which is our tradition when we’re making promises. He got up and led me to his car before we entered, he called Derek to pick up my car from the beach and bring it to my house.
Alex drove to my house and we decided to watch a movie. We changed into some dry clothes, I let him borrow my dad’s clothes. In the middle of the movie, I felt my eyes dropping.
“You can sleep if you want” He whispered in my ear, making me shiver.
“No. I want to watch it with you” I whined.
“I’ll be here when you wake up. Just go to sleep” He suggested. I didn’t bother fighting back, the urge to sleep was really hard to fight off.
I felt my eyelids close and in an instant I was asleep.
♥♥♥
I woke up to find no one near me. I got off the couch in search of Alex, I saw a note on the counter. It read:
Cassie,
Hey hope you’re awake. I just went out to buy some things for you. I’ll be back as soon as I can. In the mean time, keep yourself busy. I’m pretty sure you can do that.
Alex
As soon as I placed the note back on the counter, the door opened. It was Alex, that was quick.
“Hey.” I waved
“So how did you keep yourself busy?”
“I woke up, read your note, you entered.” I grinned.
“Oh, anyways look what I bought!” He began pulling out a gray bear with a scarf on. It was so cute.
“Aw…for me?” He nodded his perfect head, I grabbed the bear and hugged it. It smelled like him, how?
”I put a bit of my scent on the bear, that way if you feel sad and I’m not there; just hug the bear!” He said it like it was his most brilliant plan ever.
I thanked him with a hug.
He once again proved to me the reasons why I feel this weird feeling I feel when I’m with him.
He’s so sweet and caring. He would go to the ends of the earth as long as you’d feel happy.
I just wish he knew how I feel and he would return those feelings.
Truth is, I think I’m falling for Alexander Caleb Knight.
© Gabrielle.
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