♥Chapter 8♥
You're still my favorite melody
‘I feel like my world is crashing down without you
I know that I never could go on without you
So wherever your wings take you this time
So far away from me’
I woke up to someone shaking me.
“Hey girlie, wake up!” The voice chanted, as much as I want to ignore it, I can’t! It goes on and on and on. God, won’t he or she or it ever shut up?!
“Cassie…” The annoying voice dragged the last syllable. I was this close, imagine my pointer and thumb being so close they are almost touching each other, to slapping the person who’s waking me up.
“What?!” I said in my ‘I’m-pissed-because-it’s-too-early-to-wake-me-up’ voice.
“You have to get up or else you’re going to be late for school.” My brother, Axel, said.
“Is that a threat or an option?” I smiled.
“Kiddo, it’s never an option. It’s a threat.” He ruffled my hair.
I got up and hugged him. Aaah, sibling love. No, not incest. See, Axel finished high school and college and is now a famous photographer. He is known for his talented works and his killer looks, and no, I don’t mean killer looks as in he looks like a killer. He’s considered handsome with his disheveled black hair we inherited from our dearest mother and his emerald green eyes, unlike my dull grey ones (something I got from my dad), and with his height of 6”2, he can get any girl he wants. He was a heartbreaker during his high school days, yet he was the straight A’s, teacher’s pet, everyone’s favorite guy.
I hardly see him because of his work involves him traveling a lot, just like my parents. But every time he gets a day off, he spends it with me.
I changed into my favorite purple shorts and a yellow tank top that said ‘live.love.life’ in different colors. I wore my Vans today, I wasn’t in the mood for chucks. Ha-ha.
“So how’s my favorite sister doing?” He asked as we went downstairs for some breakfast.
“Good. Absolutely great. Wait, favorite sister? I have other sisters?” I looked at him playfully with big eyes.
“No! I mean you’re my favorite because you’re my only one!” The look on his face was full of panic and worry, I couldn’t help but laugh.
“I was kidding big bro, You bought that? Maybe I should take up acting?” I slapped his chest and walked towards the table and sat down, I began munching on the deliciously amazing waffles our chef made.
“N-no! I was acting! Yeah acting.” He was either trying to convince me or himself.
“So brother dearest, what’s our plan for today?” I asked after we finished eating.
“Well, I was thinking, how ‘bout I take pictures of my lovely sister” He was looking at me with hopeful eyes; it was hard not to resist.
“Fine.” I groaned. So much for school. Ah well, I still have tomorrow. I didn’t bother asking him about me going to school. He might change his mind, and I don’t want that to happen.
We started the photo shoot around 11am; I did some random poses like the ‘snobby look’, the ‘jump shot’, the ‘sad face’, the ‘puppy dog eyes’, and last but not the least, the ‘stolen shot’. It was the most fun I had in weeks, today was just a stress-free day. No argument to deal with, no Hayley and Alex to fix, no random people throwing something, nope, it was just me and my brother. Sometime I wish life was like this, no problem whatsoever. It makes me feel like I can do anything without hurting anybody.
Our bonding was cut due to a client suddenly called my brother and they wanted to do a photo shoot today because they can’t make it on the day they scheduled it. I hate clients like that; don’t they realize Axel has a life out of the photography area?! Grr.
Axel had to leave around 4pm to go to his work place for; yup you guessed it, work.
“Sorry kiddo, but this is a top client we’re talking about. I have to go.” He ruffled my hair, again.
“But this was supposed to be our day!” I whined, yes I can be a whiner when it comes to my brother.
“Maybe some other time.” He was about to walk away when I grabbed his wrist.
“When? You never had time for me anymore.” I looked down.
“I promise, before summer ends I will spend time with you.” He hugged me.
“Promise?” I stuck out my pinky finger; he locked it with his and said,
“Promise. Now I have to go okay?” He kissed the top of my head and walked out the door.
“Axel, wait!” I ran after him and hugged him, tears threatening to fall out of my eyes.
“Take care Axel, I love you.”
“Love you too, sis. Don’t ever forget that. I’m always here for you.” I released him and watched him walk away.
Damn. When did I get so emotional?! What day is it, it’s April 5th. Oh shit. It’s that time again. That’s why!
Suddenly, I had the urge to call my boyfriend, Derek. And that is what I did.
“Hey Derek.”
“Hey, what’s up?”
“Eh, nothing much. Say, want to have coffee?”
“Right now?”
“Yep. I missed you.”
“Sure. But it’s been only three days since we saw each other, yet here you are, missing me.” He joked.
“Yeah, well you can never have too much Derek.” I kidded.
“Okay, I’ll meet you at the café in 5.”
“Okay, bye. Love you.”
“Love you too.”
Yes, it’s been three months since Derek asked me to be his girlfriend and we haven't established the ‘I love you’ thing. He’s been nothing but the greatest boyfriend in the whole world. Aside from him being gone all the time, recording their EP, he calls me every night and any time he can. He’s so sweet, kind, and understanding; but why do I feel like I like him but only as a friend? Here’s the thing that confuses me; I have what I wanted, yet here I am, wanting someone else. Is that right? Should I break up with him? No. I love him.
No. you love someone else.
What the-?! You’re back?!
I’m always here. I had nothing to say!
Grr. I wish you always had nothing to say!
Ha-ha, you’re so funny. Anyways, you don’t love him! You love someone else!
Oh yeah? And who’s that ‘someone’ you’re talking about? Hmm?
You know him!
I know a lot of people.
Must you be so hard to deal with?!Yes, must you be so Goddamn annoying?!
Ugh.
Hey! Answer me!
…
Hey you!! Answer me! Damn you!!
…
And there I was, talking to myself as I was walking towards the café. My thought suddenly confused me even more. Why must it be like this?!
“Why?!” I shouted, my arms up like I was cursing the sky.
“Uh…babe? What are you doing?” Derek was looking at my like I was the craziest person in the world.
“Nothing! Nothing. So, how about that coffee eh?” I laughed nervously.
“Yeah. Let’s go.” He still had that look, the look of confusion slash suspicion slash I don’t know.
We ended up talking for hours. He drove me home around 9pm and when we reached the front door.
“G’night babe.” He kissed me. Dude, you’ve got to stop calling me ‘babe’. It’s so annoying.
“Night! See you at school.” I gave him a peck.
“See you too.” He looked at me with an ‘I’m-so-in-love-with-this-girl’ look. It was crushing me.
I went upstairs and took a shower then changed into my pajamas. Yes, I did not eat dinner. I hardly do. I forget. Ha-ha.
As I laid down on my bed, I couldn’t help but think of Derek and why I’m searching for someone else.
I drifted off to sleep, only to be awakened by a nightmare.
© Gabrielle.
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